VERSE 1:
A is for my apathy
B is for the b**** in me
C is for the tears I cry
D is for dying not knowing why….
I keep falling down
I got bruises all over
I got cuts & scars galore
I’m a walking tragedy
& When I look in the mirror
That’s all I ever see.

PRE CHORUS:
I keep trying to put off getting better
Cause maybe if I’m numb
I won’t be able to feel the pain

CHORUS:
I’m sick of fighting to have the upper hand
Over myself & all this s***
I’m broken & tired
I just wanna retire from life for awhile
Maybe then I can learn to smile again?

VERSE 2:
E is for wanting so bad to escape
F is for a f***ed up life
G is for going out-a my mind
H is for the hell I’ve been through
I keep messing things up
I’ve got nothing to lose
Cause I had nothing to begin with
I’m ripping stitches
I’ve worked so hard to sew
But no one ever knows

PRE CHORUS:
I keep trying to put off getting better
Cause maybe if I’m numb
I won’t be able to feel the pain

CHORUS:
I’m sick of fighting to have the upper hand
Over myself & all this s***
I’m broken & tired
I just wanna retire from life for awhile
Maybe then I can learn to smile again?

BRIDGE:
I got a whole alphabet of letters
I use to try to string together
All my words and thoughts
You just say I’m b****ing
You don’t see the open wounds…
CHORUS:
I’m sick of fighting to have the upper hand
Over myself & all this s***
I’m broken & tired
I just wanna retire from life for awhile
Maybe then I can learn to smile again?

VERSE 3:
I is for imagining something better
J is for the joke you say I am
K is for killing myself inside
L is for the love I really need
I keep on dreaming
Cause god knows I need the sleep
I’ve stayed up all night
I’m in need of a break
I just wanna be free
From whatever is hurting me.

PRE CHORUS:
I keep trying to put off getting better
Cause maybe if I’m numb
I won’t be able to feel the pain

CHORUS:
I’m sick of fighting to have the upper hand
Over myself & all this s***
I’m broken & tired
I just wanna retire from life for awhile
Maybe then I can learn to smile again?

CHORUS:
I’m sick of fighting to have the upper hand
Over myself & all this s***
I’m broken & tired
I just wanna retire from life for awhile
Maybe then I can learn to smile again?

OUTRO:
Maybe then I can learn to smile…
Maybe someone will learn to stay a while
Maybe someday I’ll learn to smile…
Again…